I’m scared again
because tonight comes alone
I am alone
tonight providing mute company,
not answering as I stare into his infinity pools.
Looking into the dark our eyes see nothing
but still they see forever.
This night I saw forever,
a forever where nothing changes
and no reunion sprouts in tomorrow’s dirt,
a forever where tonight keeps coming alone
offering deaf devoid condolences, facsimiles of failure;
a forever where nothing converges
where everything disconnects
and my legs are always running never arriving;
a forever without home,
a forever without the redemption of your eyes and arms and heart
because tonight came alone,
and I felt lonely.